Trouble Don’t Last Always___TM

The prosecution rests their case. As a mother, I will never rest my case until people understand and learn how INTENTIONAL vs UNINTENTIONAL BEHAVIOR works and the mindset behind it. I guess this will be a long saga for me. I will remain the gate-keeper, grand guardian, and trusted adult. Did GZ say he was ADD? He needs to update himself. GZ stepped over to my side of the chart. I do not play when it comes to my territory. I want the TRUTH, THE WHOLE TRUTH, and NOTHING BUT THE BUTT-NAKED TRUTH. So help me, LORD! GZ crossed the line and the FLIP SIDE of the CHART. His A… is MINE. Anyone who ever read my stories or my TWEETS will find out today why I rhyme. It is not because I’m a rapper like MISSY ELLIOT, EVE, or QUEEN LATIFAH.

You think GZ can get away with being ADD/ADHD or trying to blame it on this disorder. The term ADD has outlived its use and ADHD is the new roof up in the house on the DSM. You think GZ would know that. Please don’t go blaming it on too much sugar. The cause of ADHD is unknown and not curable. What is this BS? Are we paying ATTENTION? This is a neurobehavioral developmental disorder whose symptoms occur anywhere from age 3 to 7 years of age and can carry on into adulthood. It is not classified as a neurological disease. I hope parents are paying attention. I’m talking about school age kids, young adults, and grownups. It is classified as Oppositional Defiant Behavior, conduct disorder, and having anti-social behaviors. This is the label hung around the necks of children/adults who are diagnosed with ADHD. YE-AH! BD or behavior disorder is the luggage ADHD are now packing. How do children or adults pay attention when they are all over the place and can’t remain in their seat? Even if one appears to be quiet, doesn’t appear to be talkative, and have less disruptive behavior they can be overlooked. It doesn’t mean they are paying attention. This is how ADHD is misdiagnosed or missed. Does anyone else in GZ family have this disorder?

Sometimes people with tics disorders, learning disabilities, behavior disorders, and depression confuse it with ADHD. It’s all good because sometimes they are riding the same bicycle together. They will switch up and put on their skateboard. This particular disorder rolls with other developmental problems. ADHD can hop on your HARLEY DAVIDSON. It can ride around and roll with other psychiatric diagnoses which can co-exist with ADHD. This will include bi-polar (extreme mood swings which go from mania (an extremely high elevated mood) to burnt popcorn/depression in a short TIME zone; oppositional defiant disorder (too d… stubborn or rebellious, argue with adults and refuse to obey rules); conduct disorder (lie, steal, fight, bully, destroy property, carry or use a weapon and at a higher risk of using illegal substances). Check this out! People who are labeled as conduct disorder are at greater risk of getting in trouble at school or with the police. Let’s not leave out ANXIETY (worry, nervousness, excessive uneasiness, heebie-jeebies, compulsive, irresistible urge and just couldn’t resist); and DEPRESSION (severe despondency, sad, low spirit, hopelessness, in a slump and mournful). OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder-anxiety, repetitive behavior, intrusive thoughts, paranoid behavior) believed to share a genetic component and many characteristics of ADHD.

We know the S on SUPERMAN chest meant HOPE. Although back on earth my girl LOIS LANE had to explain to SUPERMAN it was an S. What did the S on GZ chest stand for? STALKING! What planet does GZ think we are from? Coming from the FLIP SIDE OF THE CHART you get a clearer and a WHOLE PICTURE of GZ MENTAL PROCESSING.

Which brings me to this question? How in the fock you are down with the police, all up in their KOOL-AID, and you are ADHD. If you are sporting oppositional defiant disorder or considered as a behavior problem (BD) you are not rolling with the PO PO. This individual feels the police do not understand their behavior and view the police as untrustworthy, corrupt, and will lock your A… up. It doesn’t add up with ADHD whose behavior will work against them. Whose interest is GZ protecting? Is GZ working the opposite side of the spectrum? What role is GZ playing? Didn’t SANDFORD POLICE DEPARTMENT have a poor history of race relation? Was GZ the NEIGHBORHOOD SNITCH instead of the NEIGHBORHOOD WATCHMAN? WHO is ZOOMING WHO? Who has the most to lose? Is it TIME for the police department’s dirty laundry to get cleaned. Who wanted to be a policeman? WHAT!

The detective gets on the stand and validates GZ’s INTENTIONAL BEHAVIOR. Well, look-a-here! Look-a-here! What happens to all the people who are diagnosed with NEUROLOGICAL UNINTENTIONAL DISABILITIES? This behavior would not be understood and you better have a lot of documentation at the TIME of your court date. With a detective like my man on GZ case, you’re going down and going to jail. Does this detective have any type of psychological training? How many years? Some detective, hey! He didn’t detect GZ problems or he would have never made that dumb A… statement. Does this detective have something to hide? Now you can understand why our jails are filling up with people who have disabilities. These brothers need intense training. It starts at home. Parents need to take responsibility, learn, and address their children problems. This will help diminish the incarceration and death of children or adults who are being wrongfully imprisoned. Prisons are not MENTAL HOSPITALS nor TRIAGE FACILITIES for individuals who are disabled.

Which brings me to another question? Let’s pretend we are in ARIZONA. PAPER PLEASE! I hope GZ got his paperwork in order and has all of his psychological evaluations done throughout his ADHD life. He stated he was ADD so I take it he was diagnosed early. Most adults have no clue and are diagnosed at a later date. What made him get diagnosed? Was he recently diagnosed because of TM’s death to back up his ADHD comment? Had GZ had problems before? Did his neighbors complain? Apparently, GZ was the policeman special kind of friend. Was the police aware at anytime GZ was ADHD? He made a lot of trips to the police station. Did this ever raise a RED FLAG with the police or any of GZ friends? Was GZ boat (MIND) attached to the rope on the dock and his thoughts put him in total shock (his mind is not secure)? What does his school records indicate? He tried to drum up TM school records, TM behavior, and TM FACEBOOK page.

ADHD evaluation is a 6 month or more process to get some real results up in the house. The trial is moving forward and that is a lot of information GZ would have to gather up in such a shot TIME span. Parents if you suspect your child has any type of problem. Please seek out help and get an independent evaluation from a licensed facility with licensed doctors. This isn’t for schools years but for the years ahead in your child’s now adult life. See how SH.. can happen. The greatest hurt for me is to see TM’s mother defending her son’s LIFE and behavior in TIME of his DEATH, not his breath of LIFE today. It is very sad for TM’s mother, many parents, and family members like her have to defend and advocate for the DEATH of their CHILDREN in order for our nation to learn the LESSON on gun violence. Sandy Hook and the many lives of children taken so soon and TOO YOUNG TO DIE and LOST TO GUNFIRE TYTD is HORRIFIC. From my heart to your heart a BIG SHOUT OUT to MSNBC for CARING and PAYING ATTENTION. THANK YOU.

Good Lord! Was GZ on medication? Has GZ ever taken or was prescribed ADDERALL, ADDERALL XR, CONCERTA, DAYTRANA, DESOXYN, DEXEDRINE, DEXTROSTAT, FOCALIN, FOCALIN XR, METADATE ER, METADATE CD, METHYLIN, RITALIN, RITALIN SR, RITALIN LA, STRATTERA, VYVANSE? What is the side effect of these drugs? How long can a person with ADHD take them? Has anyone seen any of these drugs lying around GZ house? Mr. COOL HAND LUKE got to be taking some sort of medication to sustain his behavior in the courtroom. Is GZ taking medication during this court procedure? Is GZ under a physician care? If not, where is GZ getting his meds from or any substance to help control his attention and behavior? Does he drink? How much? This reminds me of the movie FLIGHT but DENZEL WASHINGTON was more convincing. GZ is trying to take FLIGHT but his lies and inconsistent behavior are going nowhere.

Here are some of the question I would be asking. At what age was GZ diagnosed? Did the behavior GZ displayed last for a period of 6 months or more? Was GZ behavior observed by a licensed psychiatrist or a licensed mental health facility? Has GZ ever taken any of the following drugs listed above? Was GZ a premature baby? Did his mother drink during her pregnancy or smoke? Does GZ father have any types of behavior problems or ADHD? You got to get a family history, medical history, and psychological history. What does GZ take if he goes off medication? Are stimulates safe for an extended period of TIME? Can any of the non-stimulate drugs cause suicidal tendencies? Does GZ have problems sleeping? Did GZ drink or has been known to take any other narcotics? Did GZ take any medication that night or have anything to drink? Is there a problem with GZ’s appetite? Has there been any weight gain or weight loss? Why? Is this weight gain or weight loss due to medication or overeating? I notice GZ has picked up some weight since last year. Did GZ need to get his papers in order to cover up the loop-hole for making the statement he was ADD?

Does GZ suffer from any cardiovascular disease? He could be at a greater risk of stroke, heart attack and drop dead death. Would this impair GZ struggle in the fight against TM and prevent him from using his gun? What makes GZ forget? Has GZ suffered any TIA’s(mini strokes) which can cause confusion briefly? What happens to the bushes? There is some confusion in this story. Has GZ ever told anyone he hears voices? Does GZ hallucinate? I wonder if GZ ever had any scans on his brain?

What encompasses ADHD? You would have a problem staying focus, paying attention, difficulty controlling behavior, and being overactive or hyper. These are key behaviors of ADHD. Many children may display some of these behaviors. Once you add Habanero peppers to the mix of the behavior it will kick out more unwanted, reckless A… ACT before one THINK behaviors. The person is more impulsive and does not understand the cause nor effect this would have on his/her behaviors nor the consequences that will come along with the package. So it is not PLANNED or PREMEDITATED. GZ stated he was scared and afraid. Strange! The biggest inconsistency for me was GZ FEAR STATEMENT and the way he behaved. Who was behind the wheel of the car? Who was following or stalking? What was he THINKING? GZ had TIME to THINK behind the wheel of his car. GZ mind was not a BLANK SLATE. How many TIMES had GZ taken this route and PLANNED what to do with a person if felt they did not belong in his neighborhood? He was very familiar with his environment. The more you interact with your environment and the more information you gather the better you are at resolving the conflict. He was not ISOLATED from his environment. GZ knew what to do, how to act, learn the rules, and learn the appropriateness of one’s behavior. Was there a set TIME for GZ to make his move? What was GZ planning and plotting behind the wheel of his vehicle? The wheels on the bus ain’t going round and round. I am not buying the ADHD diagnosis. Unless he is so heavily medicated it has masked his disability.

When you ACT BEFORE YOU THINK you are not riding around with the FEAR FACTOR? Impulsive behaviors do not realize the FEAR FACTOR nor death may be the final consequences of their actions. Impulsive behavior does not understand the domino effect nor the impact their action will have on another love one’s life if their action cost them their LIFE or someone else’s LIFE. Impulsive Behavior is a BLURTER. They blurt out their emotions never realizing it can hurt someone’s feelings never realizing the consequences of what they say can cause so much damage. They are very impatient and feel the need to act without realizing the consequences. If they did they would THINK BEFORE THEY ACT. This is not PLANNED, ORGANIZE, or PREMEDITATED. It is purely UNINTENTIONAL BEHAVIOR. Bottom line you need evidence and papers to prove it. Keep PAPER PLEASE UPDATED. This is a major shout out to PARENTS.

LET’S DO THIS:

GZ wasn’t distracted when he was pursuing TM. He didn’t seem to miss giving details to the police and SHAWN HANNITY. He said he forgets information but he gave out a lot of information to the media. TM was GZ target. GZ did not switch back and forth to another activity trying to avoid the situation. He was focused on TM and he stayed focus. Did GZ get bored with pursuing ™ after a few minutes of stalking him? Unless GZ was doing something he really enjoyed doing he would hang with the program. I supposed GZ enjoyed playing TOP COP.

A person diagnosed with ADHD gets bored. Look out! You have to find a way to hold their interest. Teaching becomes a major job. You have to do a song and dance act. That is correct, an even RHYME. It is a major teaching tool for the little NANA WHO BOOS (grandchildren) and their mother my daughter. This is why I put the little … on the words because they are still trying to figure them out. I give them a list of words that start with the same letter of my connect the dot word. They are pretty smart and they realize the words in the column just don’t add up. If my story is too long I tell them to read only half and read the other half in a few hours. If it is someone in the story they don’t like it will not get read. It will become “tell us NANNIE from your mouth” story. To all the HATERS who Hate me writing in CAPS, it is used as a teaching tool for my son who is diagnosed with NLD so his voice can fluctuate back and forth and not sound MONOTONE all the D..n TIME. As far as my little NANA WHO BOO, she becomes unglued when all the letters are small. It breaks the monotony in her reading. Look out! When Jesus spoke in the NEW TESTAMENT it was written in all RED. In the OLD TESTAMENT “LORD” was in all caps. What are you reading? It’s probably is a PLAYBOY MAGAZINE. Hey, and it is all NAKED.

This brings me to the A GZ got in his class. Did he follow the teacher’s instructions? Was GZ an organized student? Did he arrived to class on TIME and complete his assignments? Was GZ in the habit of missing classes or being late for class? Did he come prepared with paper and notebook in his hand? He must really like collecting all that information and riding around with the police to figure out a way to bring down his victim. Some organizer! Did he help organize his DEFENSE fund? What a PLANNER? Was GZ very attentive and could follow through with the assignment when his instructor gave direction? Flip the chart over and ADHD definitely can’t do this. They have problems with EXECUTIVE FUNCTION and I am not talking about the PRESIDENT. This BROTHER GOT SKILLS! EXECUTIVE FUNCTIONS is cognitive processing (planning, working memory, attention, problem solving, verbal reasoning, mental flexibility, task switching). It is how your brains learn and process information producing and understanding language. It zeros in on reasoning, problem-solving skills, and your decision-making process. Well, GZ got an F in all of those classes. TM would be alive if GZ got an A in those CLASSES. How can you be the NEIGHBORHOOD WATCH if you lack the ability to reason, problem solve, and make the right decision? GZ couldn’t watch nothing for me. WHEW!

Strange! My daughter and the little NANA WHO BOOs will avoid any task that will tax their brain. Thank god for IPAD and all the different NOTEBOOKS that are now accessible to children and adults. Going to school was a task for my daughter. It is a greater task for my grandchildren. It sure makes the job so much easier and learning is a navigational playbook. Just think if one of the NANA WHO BOOs had TOURETTE SYNDROME they would know what the dots are. WOW! Whatever GZ is taking it has his behavior on lockdown and it is definitely working. Flip the chart over and GZ look more ATTENTIVE than INATTENTIVE. Okay, my daughter and the grandchildren don’t take medication. It is called WORK WITH ME PROGRAM. Teach me STRATEGIES and COPING SKILLS. So when the NANA WHO BOOs become frustrated and unglued they are not given a PILL so they can go outside and play or socialize. Get the HELL a GRIP! What the Fock!

GZ looks pretty good when he makes his court appearance. I don’t see him squirming in his seat nor his hands having involuntary movement. He has remained seated and has been very attentive. He has not displayed any behavior that would lead one to believe he has a tic disorder. His body does not appear to have the FOLLOW THE BOUNCING BALL SYNDROME. I would love to see him testify. I wonder how fast he would become unglued? Anybody got a PEE CUP? Flip the chart over and it doesn’t look like GZ has displayed any HYPERACTIVITY symptoms.

Has GZ blurted out or interrupted any of the people who have interviewed him? He did a good job of waiting his turn to speak. I didn’t see him cut anybody off at the path. He got skills. He can teach Bill O’Reilly how to act and stop interrupting people. Flip the chart over and GZ doesn’t look too IMPULSIVE.

Maybe after this story is release you may see some changes in GZ’s behavior. Right about now it rules out his ADHD. I just can’t see the behavior. So targeting TM was GZ main FOCUS. ADHD cannot stay FOCUS unless a doctor has designed a program setting specific goals for therapy and treatment. Are parents willing to go the BUTT-NAKED mile, educate themselves, get evaluations, work with licensed facilities or license psychiatrists? Medication is an option. Depending on the severity of GZ’s conditions, medication would be an option followed by consistent visits to the doctor for checkups and monitoring the medication. ADHD is a long-term BABY and if it goes untreated it can lead to drug and alcohol abuse, failure in school, problems maintaining a job, and it will keep you in trouble with the PO PO.

Dedicated to LISA BLOOM, MARCIA CLARK, JOHN BURRIS, FAITH JENKINS, KEN PADOWITZ and REVEREND AL SHARPTON

Secret agent RA-RA I counted over 75 GZ’s and only 8 TMs. I would have loved to had more TMs but GZ did not give me the opportunity. TOO YOUNG TO DIE AND LOST TO GUNFIRE. TYTD

To the MARTIN FAMILY, TM’s MOTHER, TM’s FATHER, TM’s BROTHER and all the people who loved TM my prayers are with you. RACHEL JENTEL holds your head up. You did a good job. TROUBLE DON’T LAST ALWAYS___TM

Got No Time To Be Disabled

Scene:  Trevon, a young man going to school in the urban school district, has agreed to meet Smokelbg at an outside cafe for lunch.  Trevon talks about his life in the city. He tells how he views the educational system and what he thinks of being disabled.

Smokelbg:

Hey Trevon!  I’m glad you showed up. You had me worried. I thought you might have changed your mind.

Trevon: I’m always late. Three weeks ago I got fired from my job at Wendy’s. If I had been reading your blog, I could have told the old dude that I had a disability. Knowing him, he would fire me again. My mama says black folks are always late. They will be late for their own funeral. I would call it the haters-late disability.

Smokelbg:

Why would you call it that?

Trevon:

They’re mad and sitting there complaining about you being late. They didn’t get up and leave. That’s all they had to do.  All they want to do is run around and tell everybody you were late.  Hater!  Do you believe all that stuff you write?  Man, that’s a lot of stuff. I started not to go to your site.

Smokelbg:

Why? The deal was I tell your story and you read the blog.

Trevon:

It didn’t have nothing to do with the deal. The last time I got on a website it looked like a giant video game. I couldn’t follow what they wanted me to read. I started pushing buttons and then I couldn’t remember what the person wanted me to do. You think that is a disability too?  There is so much stuff written on your blog that sounds like what my friends, family, and my enemies all say.

Smokelbg:

Yes, it could have something to do with your attention span. You might get easily distracted.

Trevon:

It could have something to do with where I live. There is so much going on around me that I must have people watching my back. Yeah, you call them grand guardians. I like that name.

Smokelbg:

The purpose of the grand guardians is to make sure the person that is disabled doesn’t get taken advantage of.

Trevon:

Well, that wouldn’t be me. I will do them before they could do me. That is just the way it is done. Survival lady.

Smokelbg:

What about your enemies?

Trevon:

My enemies used to be my friends and now they are haters.

Smokelbg:

It doesn’t bother you to have these haters?

Trevon:

Too many people in your business can get you killed.

Smokelbg:

What are you doing that can cost you your life?

Trevon:

Who said you had to be doing anything?   Last month my friend was getting gas at a service station and he got shot at. I have gone to at least three to four funerals within two weeks time. You know where I stay? You can empty your garbage without thinking about it. I might be the one that is taken out for garbage.

Smokelbg:

What do you plan to do to after you graduate from school?

Trevon:

Hold up, who said I plan on graduating?  Back up for a minute. I got to find a job because my old girl( mom) is on my case about moving.  I will soon be turning 18 years old and she wants me up out of there.

Smokelbg:

What if you are not ready to be on your own? What if you needed added support?

Trevon:

It doesn’t matter, you gotta go.

Smokelbg:

Tell me how your day starts before you go to school?

Trevon:

Man, I got to listen to my old girl go off about the bills, how my daddy left her in a bind, and I was going to be just like my no-good daddy.  Aunt Martha, my dad’s sister, broke up the marriage between my dad and the old girl. How can somebody break up your marriage just because the sister doesn’t have anything to do with the old girl?   The old girl is a drama queen.  My dad was smart when he left. He got tired of hearing all that noise from the old girl. I will be glad to get up out of here. I can’t take too much more in this house.  All this takes place before I can even eat breakfast.

Smokelbg:

I take it that you and your mom don’t get along.

Trevon:

The old girl got some issues. Her whole family got some severe issues.   I would hate for something to happen to me. Just the thought of the old girl’s family getting any of my kids scares me to death.

Smokelbg:

Do you have any kids?

Trevon:

Noooo. I don’t want any.  I wouldn’t want to bring them up around here.

Smokelbg:

What’s your day like at school?

Trevon :

When I go to school,  it is social time. I mostly hang out. As soon as someone does something crazy, then it is black you are under attack time.

Smokelbg;

What does that mean?

Trevon

The school rounds up everyone who was in the area and goes through their list. You know I’m on the list for BD (behavior disorder). The funny thing is everybody has got a problem in the city. You call it a diagnosis. Man those words are tight.

I know I’m going to act up at some point. It’s too crowded in the classroom and they got me sitting too far back. I get angry when it is cut up time and I’m out.

Smokelbg:

Have you told your mom the problems you are having in school?  I’m sure she would want to come and talk to the teachers and help fix the problem.

Trevon:

You really believe your own stories. The old girl is the problem.  We don’t connect like that. Why do you think I work?  It sure is not to help pay bills. Ole girl is on that end.

Smokelbg:

Can you explain that to me? I’m not quite sure….. There are several things that come to my mind when you say that.

Trevon:

Well, in this neighborhood there is only one answer. She’s whacked and on crack. This is her way out of the neighborhood. Yeah, my mom as you call her(getting really upset). You know what,  I’m not going out like that. When old girl gets low it ain’t pretty.

Smokelbg:

Let me know if you want to finish another day.

Trevon:

You are not getting out of this. I had to read all those crazy stories and that was the deal… (lifts his head and smiles). I’m good, it’s okay. Whenever I talk about old girl it …..

Smokelbg:

Hey, you want some dessert?

Trevon:

Sure, you know you are paying. True Dat.

Smokelbg:

Which one of the stories do you like?

Trevon:

I like the football stories. I’m really into sports.  I like the Darlene Dyslexia story because I  kind of feel I do some of those things as far as reading and pronouncing my words that way. The St. Patrick’s Day story is it.  This is the neighborhood I live in. Catrina Schizo ain’t nobody but Aunt Jackie.  I love me some Aunt Jackie. She is out there.

Everybody in this neighborhood has got some kind of label.  Where did you get all those fancy doctors?  I’m lucky if I go to the dentist and get my teeth pulled. I never heard of no neuro…..whatever.  Stuff like that must cost a fortune.  See people in this neighborhood got to be on guard all the time. Those doctors don’t understand that we ain’t got no time to be disabled. As soon as we get disabled then we get taken out of the box. We look crazy to them because the people in this neighborhood know this is the only way of surviving. This is our way of keeping others out and protecting ourselves. We know who belongs and who don’t. It is time for  Trevon to shed this label because I want more.

I just wanted to tell you that you were not going to get any better education in the burbs than in the city. Remember, you are black and under attack and that’s whacked.

Smokelbg:

Trevon, I appreciate you for all of your time. This has been a true eye opener for me and I really learned a lot today. I sincerely want to see you make it and fulfill your dreams.

Trevon:

This ain’t no dream. This is Trevon coming at you live and raising the hell up out of here.

Smokelbg:

I was really concerned about Trevon and how he viewed being disabled, his school, and life.  Here is something that I found very interesting to help validate Trevons theories on labeling people.

Advisory Alert: Mental Health: A Report of the Surgeon General

Chapter 4 Adults and Mental Health: Schizophrenia

Overview:  Cultural Variation in this section 2nd paragraph it discusses clinicians misinterpretation and misdiagnosis of patients of diverse backgrounds. This is due to the norm of emotional expressions, social behavior, and cognitive style is address by professionals who are truly qualified to do so. See Chapter 2 and Center for Mental Health Services[CMHS], 1997. One finding is that African-American patients are more likely than whites to be diagnosed with severe psychotic disorders in clinical settings (Snowden & Cheung, 1990; Hu et al., 1991; Lawson et al., 1994, Strakowski et al., 1995)

The interpretation of the overdiagnosis of psychotic disorders among African-Americans is reviewed as clinician bias. Find out about other cultures. Go to http://www.surgeongeneral.gov/library/mentalhealth/chapter4/sec4.html#course.

No Shame In Their Game On ST. Patrick’s Day

Scene: Tyrone Tourette, known as TS (cousin of Bobby Tourette), is having drinks and conversing at an Iris Pub called Slimery Otoole. Tyrone Tourette and Catrina Schizophrenia give some background information on themselves. Nicky NLD is waiting for the story to be told on how St.Patrick’s Day got started.  Tyrone Tourettes, before he gets too much green beer in his system, will tell the story. Nicky NLD is running out of patience.

Tyrone Tourette:

Nicky,  look at how crowded Slimery Otoole is tonight. It’s jammed packed. Tyrone is going to take you on his TS tour. I’ll Take You There just like the Staple Singers and tell you how St. Patrick’s Day came into existence.

Nicky NLD:

Tyrone are you sure you don’t want me to tell the story?

Tyrone Tourette:

Why should you tell the story?

Nicky NLD:

Once your tics kick in, it could get messy.

Catrina Schizophrenia:

What are Tics?

Tyrone Tourette:

Catrina Schizo, I have this neurological disorder where people describe me as having strange body movement over and over.  Some people have this image in their head of me having involuntary movement and making noises called tics. I don’t like to be stereotyped.

Catrina Schizo:

I feel you on that one Tyrone. I have this severe brain disorder that disables me from being able to carry out my life. People try to stereotype me and say that I hear voices others don’t hear. They say I believe other people are reading my mind, controlling my thoughts, and I’m plotting to harm someone.

Tyrone Tourette:

Catrina Schizo that IS what you do.

Catrina Schizo:

Wait a minute Tyrone… The key word is I MAY do these things… MAY, okay?

Tyrone Tourette:

Let me get your key and unlock your door. You are talking to Tyrone baby, I know what you do.

Nicky NLD;

Come on TS,  ease up off of Catrina  Schizo. This is a big deal for her. Remember we use to force her to talk. We knew when she didn’t take her medication and wasn’t in therapy.  I did not like seeing her in a catatonic state. She shut down as tight as a drum and was upset about it. I mean agitated.

Tyrone Tourette:

Look at you Nicky NLD, using analogies. I remember when you didn’t do double meanings.

Nicky NLD:

I have gotten better. As long as the person who uses the analogy explains it right away.  I won’t get lost in the conversation. Are you going to tell the story or not?

Tyrone Tourette:

Be patient Nicky NLD. I want people to know some things about me and Catrina Schizo. There is no shame in our game.

Nicky NLD:

You are right. People learned about me in the Who In The World Is NLD. Go ahead, man. Do your thang.

Tyrone Tourette:

Tourette’s syndrome (TS) is noticed around 7-10 years of age. It shows no prejudice. Tourette’s syndrome can affect anyone. Men are affected three times more than women. It can last a lifetime. In one’s teens, it can get butt-ugly. Later on, they may improve in the late teens on into their adulthood.

Catrina Schizo:

I want to learn more about your motor tics.

Tyrone Tourette:

Sure, sometimes they are simple motor tics. These are brief and I don’t use a lot of muscles. I can have eye blinking, making faces (grimaces),  jerking the head or shoulders or shrugging shoulders. With vocalizing tics I will clear my throat repetitively, sniffing, making grunting sounds, or barking. I use more muscle with complex tics. You can get the combo like at McDonald. I can make faces, twist my head and shrug my shoulders. There are times when people think that I’m doing the other complex tics on purpose. These are hopping, jumping, bending, sniffing, twisting, and touching objects. There are times when I have phrases of words that sound like jibber-jabber. It can get really bad if I do harm to myself and I punch myself in the face, or the cursing (coprolalia) or echolalia (repeating word or phrases of others).  Who do you know that does that hopping around thing?  Don’t answer that. That is another story another day.

Catrina Schizo:

I bet people think you are crazy.

Tyrone Tourette:

How are you going to call somebody crazy?  Are you sure this is me you are talking to and not someone you think you see or hear?

Catrina Schizo:

Do you really want to find out if I’m violent are not? You know, I have grown pretty fond of you. Sometimes we have the tendency to hurt the ones we are closest to.

Tyrone Tourette:

Girl, don’t make me unfriend you and push the button. I do have a Facebook account and I will Tweet you out.

Nicky NLD:

Is your collar on that shirt too tight around your neck? I hope your shirt is the right size. The last time you had neck tics.

Tyrone Tourette:

It’s all good. The last time I had tried to suppress my tics,  it only made them worse. I do better when my tics are expressed. Letting it build up is not good for me at all. A lot of times people think I’m doing this on purpose. I don’t know what causes Tourettes Syndrome. Let’s put it this way, I have unintentional behaviors that I don’t plan. It happens and my brains play a big part in the way I react. These neuro-behavioral problems can be caused by not paying attention, hyperactivity, and being impulsive. The guys (disorders) that hang out with me and are associated with me is OCD and ADHD. Even though my buddies know I can suffer from depression and anxiety they still remain to be my friends.

Hey, Catrina Schizophrenia you are up to bat. Tell us about yourself.

Catrina Schizo:

I have some positive symptoms about me.

Nicky NLD:

Is that positive good or positive bad?

Tyrone Tourette:

How can a positive symptom be bad?

Nicky NLD:

Tyrone TS, you are full of your ignorant oil (liquor). You can be HIV Positive, that is not good, and you could be like Catrina Schizophrenia, very delusional and not being able to face reality.

Catrina Schizo:

If you guys let me finish, I’ll tell you the rest.

Tyrone Tourette:

Ahhhhh Yeah Baby, Take us there (too much to drink).

Catrina Schizo:

As long as I take my meds, I’ll do okay. I do have psychotic behavior. Sometimes I lose touch with reality. This can come or go. Right now I’m not the healthiest person.Yes, I do hallucinate. I just really need to keep up with my treatment.

Tyrone Tourette:

I’m hallucinating right now.

Nicky NLD:

Tyrone you have enough green beer and Irish cream Whiskey in you already. I can’t tell you from Catrina Schizo.

Catrina Schizo:

It’s not like that Tyrone. I hear voices. My voices talk to me about the way I’m behaving. My voices order me to do things, alert me to dangers, and my voices can talk to each other.I had been hearing voices for a very long time before my family found out.  Bruce Willis could see people in the movie Sixth Sense. I see people too. I can feel people touching me. I can smell odors that others can”t smell. People try to tell me it’s nothing there but I know for a fact I see objects.

Tyrone Tourette:

You got some skills. Did you take your meds before you came out? You still go to treatment?

Nicky NLD:

Let her finish.

Tyrone Tourette:

Just checking Baby, this is the TS.  I did not want my tics to come out and play.

Catrina Schizo:

I am delusional. Many times people have proven me wrong and showed me what I am believing isn’t true. My delusions can get pretty bizarre. One time I thought Rachel Maddow was broadcasting my thoughts on her  TV program. Chaka Khan was out impersonating me. My boyfriend, Kanye West was mad because my album came out before his. He started cheating on me, then he tried to poison me. I reported him to the police for harassment. He had been spying on me for months.

Tyrone Tourette:

Your mind works like that for real?  Girl, I will trade you my disorder. I hope Jennifer Hudson got over me. I know she got married but she still wants me. Right.

Catrina Schizo:

These are things I believe. It is called delusions of persecution.

Tyrone Tourette:

Wooooh, I think you sobered me up. I have got to keep my eyes on you.

Catrina Schizo:

Sometimes it’s hard organizing my thoughts to make logical sense. I talk nonsensical and in garble. It is hard to understand me. I have thought to block. When I am talking to a person it feels like someone kidnapped my thoughts. You know what, I can even make up meaningless words called neologisms.

Nicky NLD:

I know someone who acts this way.

Tyrone Tourette:

Who?

Nicky NLD:

My girlfriend.

Tyrone Tourette:

Oh Man, you sure you don’t want to crash at my house until you have a talk with your girlfriend?

Nicky NLD:

Thanks for the offer but I can’t prolong what I suspected all the time.

Tyrone Tourette:

The offer stands whenever you are ready.

Catrina Schizo:

I’m not finished. I have body movement that I do over and over when I get agitated but not like yours Tyrone Tourette. Back in the day when there was little treatment, I would be in that catatonic state not responding to others. My main course meal is I hear voices. The negative symptoms are tricky and hard to identify. People mistake them for depressions or other symptoms. It disrupts ones normal emotion and behaviors. You notice how Meridia’s face doesn’t move (flat affect) and her voice is dull. It always seems to be monotone. No matter how hard she tries she never sticks to her planned activities. You have to stick a crowbar in her mouth to force her to speak.  She needs help with everyday tasks and I would constantly get on her about her hygiene. She was a hot mess. I thought she was lazy and trifling but this was all because she is schizophrenic. Nicky NLD you remember Rita?

Nicky NLD:

Yeah, I had a crush on Rosy Cheeks Rita. What happens to her?

Catrina Schizo:

She had some psychological testing. Her working memory wasn’t working. She didn’t have the ability to use information immediately after she learned it. Rita never stayed in focus or paid attention. Rita had problems with understanding the information to make a decision. This is called poor executive functioning. Cognitive symptoms are hard to find unless they are tested for.  These symptoms are understated. It was hard for her to keep a job, lead her life, and she was emotionally stressed out.

Nicky NLD;

That is a lot of information on my homegirl. Hey, can we get to the story now?

Tyrone Tourette:

Yeah, this is the new and improved Clarence Update.  St. Patrick’s Day is celebrated on March the 17. This is the day that St.Patrick died. We associate this day with the color green,  leprechauns, fairies, shamrocks, snakes, corn beef and cabbage, Irish music, green beer and Irish Creme Whiskey, and of course the St. Patrick’s Day Parade.

The Shamrock was a sacred plant that represented the rebirth of spring. The Celts called it a “seamroy”. The shamrock later represented the Irish breaking out and expressing themselves and taking pride in their culture and advocating for rights to be who they are. The English began to take over the Irish land and they didn’t want the Irish to speak their language nor practice their religion, which was Catholicism. The Irish said, “screw this we are wearing our shamrock and since we like the music we are going to sing it to the tune of Kool Moe Dee, How You Like Me Now”.  This pissed Queen Lizzy No.1 off.  Every artist and piper that was Irish got the ax. Nicky NLD you really are going to like this.

The Celts expressed themselves verbally. Since the APA(American Psychiatric Association) won’t open up a community for you this would have been the perfect place.  They rocked the house with their verbal expression of storytelling, singing, and dancing. Their oral culture of religion, history, and their folklore was passed down through the ages.

They got a little depressed but they never stopped singing “I’m Coming Out” by Diana Ross. Since they never gave up, today they’ve got popular bands like the Chieftains, Clancy Brothers, and Tommy Makem. You just keep singing that tune “Hold on I’m Coming” by Sam and Dave.

That story about the snakes was made up. St Patrick didn’t go up on a rock and banish thousands of snakes.  He took his behind up there. He drove his Orkin’s truck and pulled out his Real Kill snake spray gun. The snakes were a metaphor to get rid of the idea of worshiping all those crazy statutes the English worshiped.  Their traditional meal was always cabbage and corn beef.  Corn beef didn’t show up until the turn of the century.  The corned beef got pricy. So the Irish immigrants, now living in New York City on the lower east side, found a way to save money by bringing home the bacon and frying it up in a pan. They got the hook up from their Jewish neighbors and all went well.  Then you had shorty running around. These were the leprechauns known as “”.

Little dudes with tree stump bodies.  They were so paranoid about their pot of gold. They used voodoo, hoodoo, and doo doo to protect their funds.  The Leprechauns didn’t have anything to do with St. Patrick’s day. Do you see how lies get started?  In 1959 Walt Disney got creative and threw the leprechauns in the mix.  In 1962 Chicago River has become famous for being dyed green on St. Patrick’s Day.  The Irish grew in numbers and became the Green Machine and gain Respect just like Aretha Franklin’s song. They are no longer considered the Drunken Monkeys.

Catrina Schizo:

Can you get me a date with one of those little guys?

Nicky NLD:

See what you did, Tyrone Tourette. You know Catrina Schizo doesn’t need any more false reality in her head.

WARNING: To all those who read this story…  if there is anything in this story that sounds like you,  a friend or a family member, get to a doctor immediately. We don’t want any Shame In Your  Game.

Look of Love NLD Valentines’s Day

The Scene opens with a loving couple talking to each other.

Cynthia:

Did you bring me that special edition of Ebony Magazine?

Leon:

Yes, I did.

Cynthia:

I”m talking about the one that has the three different covers on it.

Leon:

I got this baby girl.

Cynthia:

Is it the edition with the Obama’s on it?

Leon:

Yes, it is.

Cynthia:

Does it say 15 Hottest Couples?

Leon:

Okay, stop right there. You’re rocking my list. That was eight questions. When you sent me to the store, you gave me too many directions. You wanted the magazine, avocados and hair dye. I forgot the other stuff.  So I went back to pick up BeBe so he could help me out.

Cynthia:

You went to Bebe’s house!  Is that why it took you so long?

Leon:

Bebe is my interpreter. We have been hanging out together for years. He’s my trusted friend and he has my back.

Cynthia:

Yeah right, Bebe is a knucklehead.

Leon:

Hey, you don’t need to be dissing my friend.  I have a hard time multitasking. If you just give me 3-5 things to do, I will be just fine.  But girl, you went on and on.

Cynthia:

So, are you telling me that I worked your nerves?

Leon:

Hey, I did not say that. I’m saying that if you give me too many directions it’s going to set me up for failure.  Baby, I have problems with multitasking.  It is on my list.

Cynthia:

You and your list.  All I asked you to do is get me a few things from the store, stop at Arnesha,  get my curling iron and pick up my dress from the cleaners. You forgot that but you didn’t forget Bebe.  Since he is your interpreter, why don’t you marry him? Interpret that!

Leon:

Ooh, don’t tempt me, girl.

Cynthia:

What did you say?

Leon:

My friends Andre Autism, Arnell Asperger and Ace ADHD have the same problem with staying focused and multitasking.

Cynthia:

No Leon, your friends have problems with their names all starting with A. There are 26 letters in the alphabet.  Is that all their parents can come up with is the letter A?

Leon:

Come on. Your friends name Arnesha.

Cynthia:

Leon, don’t go there.  Just bring me the magazine and tell me what you see. Okay, come over here.  Are you paying attention?

Leon:

Yeah, baby.

Cynthia:

Well…?

Leon:

Michelle and Barack have pretty teeth.

Cynthia:

Get out of here.  You did not just say that.  They’re smiling.  Check out the look in their eyes.  Leon, this is the look of passion and true love.

Leon:

Girl, you are over the top. So I am supposed to see all that from a look on their faces in a magazine photo?  Right.

Cynthia:

You never look at me anyway when I’m talking to you. Hell, I will take a cross-eyed look right about now…  Anything!

Leon:

Cynthia it is going to make you mad. It is on my list.

Cynthia:

Here we go. I’m so tired of that list. Where Leon? Show it to me.

Leon:

It is right there with nonverbal communication. That’s why I can’t look at you or tell you what mood you are in. I can’t read facial expressions.  This has an effect on the way I act toward your friends. You get on me about that television show, Lie To Me. It teaches facial expression and body languages.  I’m really trying to learn.

Cynthia:

Oh, Leon, my friends will help you.

Leon:

Thanks, baby, I’ll keep looking at the program… and I’ll keep reading this book on different cultures and what their gaze means.

Cynthia:

Leon, I didn’t know you could read.  Just kidding.

Leon:

If we were Asians and we gazed at each other like that,  it could mean that we are rude, aggressive and disrespectful.  Japanese lower their gaze in respect. Our culture is more flirtatious. In some cultures, it means that you are putting a spell on someone by giving them the evil eye.  They even did a study on children who tested and gave better answers when they were not looking at the examiner.  It takes a lot of mental processing when you are looking at someone.  The children that look at the examiner did not do as well.  Hey, it is just a theory.

Cynthia:

Wow, Leon, that is really interesting.

Leon:

Cynthia… about your girlfriend Arnesha…

Cynthia:

Yeah, Leon.

Leon:

She has SAD

Cynthia:

No Leon, don’t you mean she IS sad?

Leon:

No, SAD means social anxiety disorder. She is petrified of embarrassing herself. Arnesha has an intense fear of people talking about her. Whenever Arnesha comes over here and we are going to the party, she starts pouring on the alcohol. She starts shaking, complaining that she has nausea, and pouring out the sweats. Did we ever make it to the party?  I know that is your homegirl,  but you really need to talk to her about seeing a doctor.

Cynthia:

Oh, Leon, I didn’t know you cared.

Leon:

I don’t.  She is drinking up all my Hennessy. Just kidding!  Gotcha back.

Cynthia:

Leon, I see you’re getting better with the jokes. Boy, I’m going to grey you up yet.

Leon:

I just wanted to include Arnesha… I know how it feels to be left out.

Cynthia:

Leon, I’m so proud of you. You have really come a long way.

Leon:

Cynthia, I really appreciate you too.  I know it has been hard for you but thanks for hanging out.

Cynthia:

Leon, can you try to give me that look Barack is giving Michelle?

Leon:

Girl it’s going to take a long time before I master that one. Will you hang tough with me that long?

Cynthia:

Well, as long as you keep trying.  For now, I will take Alicia and Swizz or we can go for a Will and Jada smile and gaze.

Leon:

Baby, try not to rock my list. It took lots of work getting me to express my feelings. Just please be patient and together we will achieve one skill at a time.  At least I’m not Patrick Swayze and Demi Moore in Ghost saying “Ditto”.

Cynthia:

I love you, Leon.

Leon:

Happy Valentine’s Day Cynthia.

Cynthia:

Good Night.

Super Bowl Flare Up NLD

We are counting down the days to the Superbowl. Emotions are running high. Our tempers are flaring up. Americans go berserk when competitive sports are involved.

Can I have a spotlight down here, please?  I just need to take a closer look at some of the players.  Thank you.  Maybe this will shine the light on why our team players are having these outbursts of anger, and explosive behaviors.

Leroy, get over here and stop acting like you own the team.  I know you don’t do well with criticism.  You upset a few of your teammates when you get loud and you were in their face.  Don’t be upset if they change the color of your shoes. You look like a Demanding Diva to the coach and the owner.

Let’s get one thing straight.  Leroy is not emotionally disturbed.  He has some negative behaviors but he is not a behavior problem.  In the Sunday paper, it had Leroy Syndrome painted as an arrogant a-hole.   He is not arrogant and he wasn’t having a bad hair day.  Leroy Syndrome is NLD.  Leroy does Leroy.  He does himself.  Leroy does have other special interests.

It appears that Leroy may have a know-it-all attitude.  He has trouble with authority figures and has a problem with identifying who is in charge.  So coach Asperger, just explains to him in a nice calm voice that the team is not his.  Sorry Coach, I forgot you have the same problem with a loud voice.  We will find someone else to do it.  Leroy does better with praises than with criticism.  Tell Mike Ditka this is good for Leroy’s self-esteem.  What is wrong with positive feedback?  We all know Leroy needs a lot of praises.

Bring that bucket over here.  Is that the understanding bucket?  That’s the wrong bucket.  Get it out of here!

Tell Dwayne and Boo Boo don’t get mad.  I know he talks loud.  The other players Asperger,  Autism, and ADHD talks loud also.  He did not mean to sound threatening.  Leroy has a right hemisphere brain disorder.  He is unable to comprehend changes in voices and body language.  The non-verbal element of his speech is disturbed.  Leroy doesn’t have rhythm.  Literally.  That’s in his voice and tone of his speech.  He can’t read the facial expressions which play a part in his loud voice.  Calmly say to him, lower your voice.  He just needs to be cued in.

Leroy would you tell them that those tennis shoes are not your lucky piece charm.  “Yes, I have a hard time adapting to change and the coach did not let me know ahead of time.”  Leroy, is there anything else you would like to tell us?  “Well, the shoes are important to me.  I have a difficult time with what is relevant or irrelevant.  I talk off task or get away from the subject.  When people don’t explain themselves and they ask me did I understand, I say no.”  Well, you heard it firsthand from Leroy Syndrome.  This will help you understand why people tell you NO.

To the owner, you have a manual on how the game is played.  It is time to get a manual on Leroy Syndrome.

This one is dedicated to Barack and Michelle Obama.  Understanding NO is important.