Major Player In My Life

All this turbulence has cradled my heart.
There is little left of my airflow.
My father and I are miles apart.
The loneliness has continued to grow.

I just need to find a picture
Of all the good TIMES we shared.
We both are a crazy mixture.
Dad, I know you truly cared.

I’m sitting here lonely in my room.
Help me figure this one out.
This feeling of unrelenting gloom,
Has stricken me with so much doubt.

I hope you left me a letter.
My spirit has begun to descend.
I’m praying it will make it all better.
I hope this is not the end.

What is that on the table?
Can this be the answers I seek?
Give me the strength to be able,
To know our situation isn’t bleak.

To my son, I will always love you.
The separation cuts deep like a knife.
The bond we share is like Super Glue.
You’re the Major Player In My Life.

Nothing has changed but the distance.
I’m filing for a divorce from my wife.
Your mother has not been resistant.
You’re the Major Player In My Life.

I will continue to support you and your mother.
There is no bad blood, conflict, or strife.
We will continue to love one another.
You’re the Major Player In My Life.

DEDICATION: This is dedicated to NATHAN MAJORS who has handled his trials and tribulations with great courage. In the face of adversity, he has become better and not bitter. Nathan has continued to be an AWESOME, AWESOME father. He has continued to hold his rank among men who are breaking the cycle of DEADBEAT DADS, NO CALL NO SHOW FATHERS, and ABSENTEE FATHERS. Unlike Congressman JOE WALSH of ILLINOIS, TEA PARTY REPUBLICAN that has not paid his wife and children $117,437.00 for 9 years is bad news for all the GOOD MEN who are STEPPING UP THEIR GAME.

To all my NLDERS here is the comparison and contrasting behavior of what is INTENTIONAL. JOE WALSH behavior is highly unacceptable. There are many men around the world who doesn’t hold the position JOE WALSH hold. These men have been called out to pay child support for way less. How did he slip through the cracks? JOE WALSH needs to be held accountable. NLD Mom/cancer survivor

You Are Not Alone

I don’t know how to tell you.

Where should I begin?

It didn’t just start yesterday.

The marriage is nearing an end.

Your mother and I have decided.

Since we have grown so far apart.

There is no way to reconcile,

What matters is what’s in our hearts.

Do not try to blame yourself.

You have wonderful capabilities.

Within our marriage we RECOGNIZED.

It brought us love, hope, and tranquility.

We all have obstacles to overcome.

You need to understand.

When your pain becomes so great.

We will be there as a support plan.

It is hard for our children to express themselves.

All the anger gets locked away.

As your father, the same mistakes were made.

I delayed the problems for another day.

Finally, we had to realize.

We aren’t the only ones involved.

It is TIME, to be honest, and open.

How did our marriage dissolve?

A lot was invested in our relationship.

I thought it would truly last.

Lies and deceit played a huge part.

Love is now the past.

We had to get our courage up.

Our children have done nothing wrong.

The emptiness we all will suffer.

Just know YOU ARE NOT ALONE.

DEDICATION:  This poem GIVES RECOGNITION to all the families across America and the NATION who are going through the process of a DIVORCE or their DIVORCE has become FINAL. Children take a tremendous PRIME BEATDOWN in the fallout of the split in the marriage. It is just not the parent’s DIVORCE but the DIVORCE of a FAMILY UNIT. Even if there are no children involved, DIVORCE is a DEATH that can be RESURRECTED through a greater sense of PURPOSE-reason, PASSION-true intense emotions, a PLACEMENT-in position to accommodate others, PRODUCTIVITY-output, and POWER-effectiveness. Will Downing would sing it to the tune of I Tried.  Toni Braxton’s swan song is Just Be A Man About It.